saturday short rambling

not even once

not even twice

and now 

you complained about my attitude?

booyah!

lenyap

kita

bergelak ketawa bersama

kelucuan geli hati berdua

nangis sedih kutuk mengutuk seia

entah kenapa

jurang terbuka

renggang tak tahu punca

di mana silapnya

yang bersama

tidak lagi seirama

yang berdua

tidak lagi senada

dari sejuta patah kata

menjadi kosong tiada berita

paling pedih

bila memori mengetuk dinding hati

paling sedih

bila memori menjengah diri 

walau apa keadaannya jua

semoga hidup kita dilimpahi rahmatNya

agar ada masa bersisa

disambung kembali persahabatan yang sirna

nina

7.07pm15112013 
bila hormon berbicara

Ahlan wasahlan ya ramadhan

Nyawa yang dipinjam ini
Ternyata masih setia menemani
Diberi peluang lagi dan lagi
Oleh Allah yang Maha pengasihani

Ramadhan penuh keberkatan
Datang menitip pesan
Aku ini hanya sebulan
Cantikkanlah aku dengan amalan

Terima kasih ya rabb
Disempatkan waktuku
Bertemu bulan keberkatan ini
Bismillahirahmanirrahim
Moga diberi kekuatan..keupayaan dan kesabaran yang tinggi menjulang

Ahlan wa sahlan ya ramadhan
I miss you like crazy

Sombong

Perlahan-lahan
Selepas sekian lama
Segala apa impian
Harapan
Yang diinginkan
Dicita-citakan
Diangan-angankan
Sinarnya mula kelihatan
Perlahan-lahan
Tuhan beri apa yang aku mahukan


Kalaulah dengan tidak berdoa
Kufur nikmatnya
Lupa solat dan suruhannya
Dia masih berlaku adil
Memberiku sebuah impian dan kenyataan
Betapa sombongnya aku
Untuk tidak melaksanakan suruhanNya

Maha suci Allah
Maha suci Sang Pencipta

Bayangkan pula
Kalau kita akur taat dan patuh
Doa zikir tak pernah jemu bertamu
Bayangkan berapa besar pula
Nikmat yang kita dambakan
Yang akan Dia berikan

Berhenti sombong
Kita ini kerdil
Tanpa Dia
Kita ini tak pernah ada

Lupa dan alpa
Itu manusia
Sedar dari terleka
Itu nikmatnya

Sigh!

Hari ini sekali lagi dalam sejarah

Aku sudah lama mencuba
Terhegeh2 dibuatnya
Sampai aku rasa penat

Kini giliran kau pula
Untuk rasa lelah

Tidak mengapalah
Kalau memang tiada rezeki
Memang inilah akhir yang adil

Pedih
Sakit
Tapi takpela
Takde rezeki

Pengalaman yang pernah ada
Aku mahu lupa
Sebab bila ingat
Pesta air mata jadinya

Manusia2 yang pernah hadir dalam hidup si gadis itu
Ternyata manusia2 yang malang
Bukan sahaja tak mampu bertahan
Malah letih untuk mempertahankan

Wahai arjuna yang gagah perkasa
Di manakah dikau tak pernahku berjumpa

hey kawan

hey kawan
kalau orang layan kita macam tahi
letak priority kita bawah kaki
kenapa kita masih nak peduli

hey kawan
kalau orang layan kita macam sampah
buat kita tidak endah
kenapa kita masih nak kisah

bodoh kan?
sebab tu kalau sayang berpada-pada
manusia yang boleh ambik berat pasal kita
susah senang sama-sama
hanya mereka yang ada kaitan darah 
percayalah

yang tak paham kenapa
may2013
2.07pm

Its not just words on facebook

...Its a reminder

Captured from facebook
Nice words...true indeed

Dear man from future
Take note

Dear me
Halal is the bestest thing ever

Rambling number 109

Kalaulah emosi ini adalah kekuatanku
Biarlah ia menjadi kekuatan yang positif
Yang memberiku erti ihsan dan kasih sayang yang sebenar

Tetapi

Kalaulah emosi ini adalah kelemahanku
Biarlah aku menjadi orang yang kering hatinya ya rabbi
Biarlah hati ini hilang dari perasaan-perasaan halus yang melemahkan
Biarlah hati ini bebas dari helah-helah kasih sayang yang parah

Mana perginya gadis itu?
Yang kalis peluru?

Xoxo
Once a bulletproof

Kal ho na ho

Alaa bodohlah kal ho na ho ni
Sedih okay

Sob sob sob

Tears

Oh i love preity zinta ;)
And shah rukh khan

Life...is unpredictable
Appreciate what you have today
Because life
Is so short

Rambling number 108

Have a safe journey my love
Ich liebe dich

Im sorry :'(

Xoxo
Didnt do anything wrong

Rambling number 107

Dia telah berjumpa dengan seorang lelaki yang sabar
Sabarnya bukan alang-alang

Dilancang dengan kata sepedih luka berdarah
Diuji dengan marah setinggi everest dan awan dan angkasa raya
Diherdik dikeji dibenci malah dimomok ditertawa
Diduga sehingga titik akhir sabar maksimanya

Namun lelaki itu
Sabarnya bukan mainan

Dia telah berjumpa dengan seorang perempuan 'gila'
Gilanya bukan alang-alang

Sekejap dia ketawa
Sekejap itu juga menjadi taufan nina
Sekejap dia bermanja
Sekejap itu juga puting beliung melanda
Ya subhanallah
Gilanya bukan mainan

Namun lelaki itu
Sabarnya bukan alang-alang

Xoxo
Miss not perfect

Rambling number 106

Insecurity is a killer
And now
I kill myself each day
Its not good
Its not good at all

Its a metaphore you idiot

Insecurities could eat me alive ~~~eminem

I just
I just want to feel safe

Xoxo
Rambler

Rambling number 105

Hey lovers

I am listening to carry on right now

Oh and other fun songs too

Tonight

I wanna sleep with smile on my face

Oh ohh and im wearing avocado mask

I cannot laugh out loud

Smile it enough

And at this moment

Someone is waiting for me to call him

He is such a baby

Spoiled baby

And i love him like that

Saya suka manjakan orang okay

Dan sakitkan hati orang juga

I know how to make people hate me

:)
Keep smiling
Life is good

Sunday's letter

Dear weather
You look stunning today
I wonder
Will you be that stunning
Until the end of today?

Dear body
Dear feet
Dear heart
Dear mind
Congratulations
You defeated laziness
You defeated cozy bed
You defeated fat
You defeated super delicious scramble eggs on the table
And then
You went for a run
You chose sweat instead of fat
Tres bien!!

Dear sunday
I love you
I just love you
Will you come more often?
I mean everyday?

Oh dear weather
I forgot to tell you
This is all because of you
So thank you

Xoxo
Sunday lover

Rambling number 104

I know one person
Her name is babi
I dont know why
But she really likes babi
I dont care if she really likes pig
But why should i?
Dont mess with my life

Please

This is her
And someone thinks she is cute

I wanna throw up

Rambling number 103

Unfortunately
My heart says
I cannot live without you
Yeah i know you are not oxygen
But im addicted
You are like drugs
You really are my kryptonite

Such a loser ive been
Love makes you do stupid things
Even though you know its stupid
They said...love is about taking risks
Oh yeah dumb and stupid risks
Mind says no
Heart says yes

Fool versus ego
Good combo
Dont you dare complaint after this
Urghh

Oh help me help myself
Oh Allah
Dont make me love him
More than i love you

Choose wisely
Just like this herbs

Xoxo
Miss fiction

Rambling number 102

Dear me,
If you can live without him for one day
I am sure
You can live without him for the rest of your life
You deserve someone better
And not him
Just give someone else a chance
Just give yourself a chance
To go out from this mess
You deserve to be happy
And to be treated right

You believed him
He screwed you

Enough is enough
Be strong to fight your feelings

Oh Allah
Just give me strength

Rambling number 101

I just wish
I can simply forget you
You dont even worth my time
You dont deserve my heart
Such a big disappointment

I gave you many chances
To prove that im wronged
To prove that you are something
I gave you my trust
Not once not twice
You ruined it
Such a big disappointment

You are nothing but a liar
You are nothing but a hypocrite
I was a fool
And still a fool
Well done
You played very well

You are really good in making promises
And you are really good in not keeping them
Congrats
You fooled me once
You fooled me twice
You fooled me for as long as i can remember

Wow
You are really something
You should become an actor
I wonder
What do you feel doing what you did?

Hey mister
You better check your face on the mirror
Because at the moment
I can only see shit

Good luck in your world
The world i will never be enter

Xoxo
Fool

Rambling number 100

Tahun ini saya bercita-cita nak menghalalkan perhubungan yang haram

Saya nak bina masjid

Saya nak dapat lebih banyak pahala

Aminkan untuk saya

Semoga dipermudahkan semuanya

Hahahah or maybe
Im just bluffing

But who knows

Happy 'us' day

Hey ladies

Happy 'us' day!
Its our day today!
Yepp yeppp yeppp

We are beautiful no matter what they said
We are gorgeous whatever the situations
We are special ..God made us special
We are awesome!
Oh yeah!

Momma
Aunties
Sisters
Friends

I love u
Be great
Be awesome
Be parfait!

Happy women's day!
With love ;)

Xoxo
A woman
Nina

Note to self ...again!!!

Solat bukan no time
Solat bukan part time
Solat mesti full time
Kalau boleh solat biarlah over time
Sebab mati itu anytime

No matter what

Solat

Solat menjadi berat bagi siapa yang ambil ringan
Solat menjadi ringan bagi siapa yang ambil berat

Wallahualam

March

I cannot believe it

My super awesome

This guy....

Damn...

I miss him so much

Him...

My super awesome
My super random guy
My comfort zone
My hensemest
My mr nag guy
My kryptonite
My no 1 curiosity
My best friend
My love
My heart

He rocks my world
And im melting because of him
From day one
Ich liebe dich

And
He will kill me
If he knows im posting this picture
LOL

Buy hey
This is my blog
Uh uh lala lala
*wink*

Xoxo
Super random me
Almost 12 am
Waiting for you to call me
-_-

Rambling potatoing

Do what you enjoy...eat the foods you love and spend a little bit of time bettering yourself each day ;)

............................................................

What am i doing at this hour?
I should go to sleep
But i cant
So im potatoing
And i love chuck rawrrr
.................................................::...........

If i have options
I prefer to watch you sleep
Sleep like a baby
Oh my lullaby
To cuddle you bare arms
Oh my yogi bear

Stars and moon
Make me sleep
Oh kamon

Xoxo,
Not so sleepy head
Almost 3 am

Perempuan itu...

Surah al-Baqarah ayat 216 : "Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu , padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui".

Ada seorang perempuan
Banyak sangat impian
Bfnya kata dia suka berangan-angan
Tapi
Impian, angan2.. Kan ke boleh jadi kenyataan?

Syaratnya mudah je
Lebihkan buat dari bercakap
Lebihkan tindakan dari suara
Dan lebihkan doa dari muslihat

Tapi tula
Impiannya tu ada yang merapek
Tak masuk akal
Tinggi cecah angkasaraya
Dalam cecah kerak bumi
Gila dan tak waras
Tapi dia memang suka merapek
Isi masa lapang

Orang taktau
Impiannya tu simple sangat
Tak banyak pun
Sikit je
Sikit2 lama2 jadi bukit

Takdir...misteri sungguh
Kita manusia boleh ubah takdir kita
Kecuali hidup dan mati

Takutnya mati kan
Sebab apa takut?
Sebab amal yang ada
Tak sebanyak impian yang dicurah

Kalau mati aku masa ni
Memang masuk neraka aku jawabnya
Tau...
Tapi tetap tanak berubah
Apa susah sangat nak jadi baik ke?
Free of charge je semuanya
Tak cukup tekad kau ni
Tak cukup ilmu
Tapi tanak usaha
Bodoh kau ni

Macamlah muda2 tak boleh kena tarik nyawa... Ek?
Macamlah kau tu muda sangat ..ek?

Dan macam2 pulak kau minta dari Dia
Tak malu ke?
Bodoh kau ni
Malu sikit la babe

Perempuan ni
bila dah setat monologue
Toksah layan
..........................................................

Bantu aku bantu diriku
Aku buta di tempat terang

Kata perempuan itu...

Perempuan
Tengah malam bulan purnama
Penghujung february

Bits + pieces ...february 15

Dear february 15
You are history now
Do me a favor
Dont come too fast next year

Wow time really flies heh
Today im 15
The next day im 15 years older
Today everyone says ohh look..how tiny this baby
The next day you realize...look..shes a lady
Today everyone gives me money ..buy me things
The next day i realize...i become a shopaholic spending money to buy unnecessary things

It creeps me out sometimes
Whatever it is
Thats the reality of life
And along this journey
What i appreciate the most is
The experience
The love
The emotions
And of course the life

I am happy and i feel blessed
Allah gave me so much
Im embarrass to admit how little i gave Him back
But i try to be better everytime
But seriously trying is not good enough

To people who always be there for me
Through better and through worst
Happy and pain
I love you all to bits
No words can describe
Family friends and my love
I have nothing except me
And you accept me just the way i am
Million thank you
Gazillion love
Hugs and kisses
I am nothing without you all

What i really love about my birthday this year
He asked me 4 magical words
And i answered with three

My wish... Happiness for all of us
More priceless years to share
More and more and more love

Terima kasih Ya rabb dipinjam nyawa lagi

Xoxo

;) much love
Nina
In your heart

Note to self

Jangan tinggal solat 😰😰

Dalam 24 jam sehari yang diberi
Berapa lama kita memberi masa kepada Tuhan?

20february2013

Counting hours

Dear february 14
Will you do me a favor
Dont let february 15 to replace you
I mean
Would you stand for your spot
Isnt it?

Why do you have to come so quickly?
Im a little bit nervous over here
Counting the hours
I mean
Im not counting at all
But looking at the time
Makes me scared
Makes me urghh you dont wanna know
What i feel inside me

Dear february 14
If you let february 15 come
It will never be the same again for me
Never ever the same again
I like the things now
Im not ready
Its nothing actually
Its just a number
No of course not
Its not just a number
Its my life
Kamonnnn

Dear me
Kamonnn
Face the truth
Its not that bad
You making it worse
But its not

Shut up!

Denial
5.30pmfeb142013
Hanging on the clock

February

Its february
I just wish there is no february this year
Lol

Seriously
Mom, why february?
Why not december?
Haha silly me

Anyway
I love february
I always do

Im thankful
And i feel blessed
There is no better month for me
I know

Thank you momma
You rock my world
And i rock yours definitely?
Lol

Counting the days
Counting hours
I hope i still alive
When the time comes
Amin

Nina
On my couch
14feb20130.14am

Hole

Dear momma..
I have so much to tell you
But no words can describe my feelings

A hole in my heart
It hurts
It really hurts

Something is missing
Something has been stolen from me
And its not okay

Dear momma

I just
Miss you so much

Sigh ;(

Hello 2013

hi...

As we begin this new year... I want to remind everyone of just how amazing you all are... This year is brand new... and you can make it whatever you want...it is all up to you. 

What you need to remember is that you are much more capable then you believe you are.
When you think you can't... you can. 
When you think you aren't smart enough..you are. 
When you want to give up.. don't. 

Things don't always go the way they are supposed to. Plans change... people flake out.. you run into problems you didn't expect.. but you know what? That is the spice of life.. or that is what they say... Trust me I don't like when things go as planned.... I am the queen of planning  one who not really plan on what i want to do... *whisper* (but still..i think of what i want in my head doh :P)...  

guess what..? I don't like it when there are changes to my 'not so well plans', but there is one thing I have learned.. and that is don't give up... You are always capable of more then you believe... Hang in there and make your dreams come true!

So welcome to 2013! I hope that it is your best year yet. What changes are you making? What goals are you setting? What are you planning for this brand new year?
 
New Year, New Goals, New Dreams, New wishlists

But first...i need to perform this without fail ~pray~
i failed ... shame on me
i have to change it ..so heres my note to self

'solat jangan tinggal....jangan tinggal solat...solat jangan tinggal...jangan tinggal solat'

perform this without fail...
and your dreams..your goals....your wishlists...in sya Allah... will come to you  

xoxo

8.00pm09012013

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