Hello 2013

hi...

As we begin this new year... I want to remind everyone of just how amazing you all are... This year is brand new... and you can make it whatever you want...it is all up to you. 

What you need to remember is that you are much more capable then you believe you are.
When you think you can't... you can. 
When you think you aren't smart enough..you are. 
When you want to give up.. don't. 

Things don't always go the way they are supposed to. Plans change... people flake out.. you run into problems you didn't expect.. but you know what? That is the spice of life.. or that is what they say... Trust me I don't like when things go as planned.... I am the queen of planning  one who not really plan on what i want to do... *whisper* (but still..i think of what i want in my head doh :P)...  

guess what..? I don't like it when there are changes to my 'not so well plans', but there is one thing I have learned.. and that is don't give up... You are always capable of more then you believe... Hang in there and make your dreams come true!

So welcome to 2013! I hope that it is your best year yet. What changes are you making? What goals are you setting? What are you planning for this brand new year?
 
New Year, New Goals, New Dreams, New wishlists

But first...i need to perform this without fail ~pray~
i failed ... shame on me
i have to change it ..so heres my note to self

'solat jangan tinggal....jangan tinggal solat...solat jangan tinggal...jangan tinggal solat'

perform this without fail...
and your dreams..your goals....your wishlists...in sya Allah... will come to you  

xoxo

8.00pm09012013

2012survival

earth

fragile

sad

miserable

melancholy

frustrated

disappointed

worried

over thinks

venting

anger

lifeless

hopeless

heart broken

sensitive

stuck

hurt

doubt

vulnerable

pain and strife

messed up

sharp pain in my heart

squeezed like a lime

rejected ignored

all in one

cry

tears

smile

tears

talk

 tears

laugh 

tears

 every now and then

tears
alone

me

today

people asking

everything is okay

everything is fine

;)

if you're crying while you're trying to tell someone you're fine—
you're not fine

What a sad beautiful tragic love affair

xoxo

human

1.32pm6/12/2012

It's not just words on a page

page views by countries : week

The winner goes to : Russia!! yeay *standing ovation

2nd runner up : United States!! weehooo *big applause

Third : Malaysia!! hekhek *hugs :)

its not just words on a page 
its me writing here 

Thank you for making my heart full

much love,

super random me

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my english sucks huh

 I love blogging...it's an outlet

Like a journal..like a diary 

 a place for me to write. to share. to ramble. 

to spit my emotion. to speak my heart

to practice my 'not so good' writing skills

to just share things

its important to use nice words when talking to others

especially your loved ones 

(but my sibling use bad.mean words to show love sometimes haha 

and yet we understand and use more bad words in return :P)

but me 

i dont know how to talk my feelings in nice words

sarcastic is like my food

mean is like my drink 

and i am not proud of it

never proud of it

shame on me

but the strange part is...

i do this to my closest and important person in my life ONLY 

if you are one of my important significant person

then you will see my true colors

not so nice view actually.....sigh 

and you will not like it..yeppp ...yeppp

if you are not significant

you will meet a super nice girl next door nina

im not a hypocrite 

am just weird sometimes

most of the times

believe me people

i am a lover

i am a romantic person in my own way

 i am not a fighter

when i fight...it means i need to refresh my brain and feeling

a minute after that i will be okay 

if you knew me well

you will know

i am sorry 

if you don't have super powerful patience 

i am sorry 

for all the bad mean words i said

i am sorry

if you think i have no regrets at all 

i just want you to know

i am trying so hard to improve myself to be a better person

everyday 

i am sorry i let you down

sigh

and 

thank you so much

for all the patience and guidance and love

i am lucky until now

i don't know what will happen tomorrow

He Is My  Backbone

butifsomethinghappen

i will never blame you

xoxo,

yours

3.00pm30oct2012

between bad and good

chicken soup for my soul

You know 

one of those days when you're just a little bit down?

one of those days when you just want to go home and eat a bucket of ice cream?

one of those days when you just need your mom's hug and tell you its gonna be okay?

one of those days when you miss something or someone so badly?

one of those days

not a lot

not weepy or teary

not dying or something

but

you just need a pick me up?

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well, i am not

today

i am not in 'one of those days' situation 

my day was awesome

everything went well

i was happy and satisfied

and still am

:)

but what is it i feel inside?

makes me wonder

what is it?

By remembering Allah, the hearts rejoice 

(Ar-ra'ad:28) .

and the very truth is

i just need my chicken soup for the soul

not the book kind

but the real kind 

so i will remember

whenever i forgot 

would you be my chicken soup for my soul?

xoxo,

stars lover

7.00pm

near medulla oblongata

Fix You~~

When you try your best but you don't succeed  

When you get what you want but not what you need  

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep  

Stuck in reverse

 

could it be worse?

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sure it could

sure it could be worse

but 

it also could be better

much better

dear you

yes you

and you

and you too

please help me help myself

please help him help himself

please help her help herself

please help them help themselves 

please help us

please fix us 

whenever we need to be fix

and you?

we will fix you in return

:)

isn't that beautiful?

i think so

open your heart and mind

fix me

xoxo,

the dreamer

5.20pm

on top of the moon

dear self

dear 17 year old self,

i am glad you chose abroad rather than stay next to him
i am glad you had your first broken heart
i am glad you cried your heart out like theres no tomorrow
i am glad you not gave up and continue your studies 
i am glad you experienced all that
and i am very proud of you
because i know how suffered you were

dear 18 year old self,

what happened? 
i am glad you were okay
i am glad you smiled and happy just like the old you
i am glad
but how you manage to do that?
in a short period of time? 
oh credit card!! i remember that
you shopped like theres no tomorrow
you have spent your money like you have millions 
you really enjoyed your time huh..with friends all over the place
party all the time
i am glad...
but i am not so proud of you
deep down i know how you tried so hard to cover your true feelings
with things you never imagine before

dear 19 year old self,

i am glad you realized how important your life at that moment
i am glad you know how lucky you were to get to go there
i am glad you know how high your parents put their hopes on you
i am glad you learned your lesson
i am glad you know how to say NO 
i am glad you know how to handle situations
i am glad you know how to balance things
i am glad you learned and continue learning from day to day 
i am glad
because i know
there were nobody else but you and yourself
and friends ..angel and demon friends
i am glad 
and i am happy for you

Take these all to heart and into deep consideration. Back then, we were too young. So many things that we have been through. So many feelings we have felt. But i am glad we experienced all that. 

Love yourself always and forever. Accept yourself regardless and just be HAPPY.

Love always,

 29 year old, you!

 xoxo,

the other person

6.15pm

under the circumstances

kringggggggg wake up baby

kalaulah kita tahu

setiap masalah yang mendatang itu

adalah loceng untuk kita bangun

selepas tidur nyenyak yang melenakan

selepas tidur nyenyak yang menyelesakan

tanpa gangguan....tanpa gangguan

kalaulah kita tahu

sering terdengar keluh-keluhan dahsyat

sering tersembur maki-makian tajam

sering terludah amuk-amukan perasaan

sering terduduk terpanar terkesima terkeciwa 

masalah kitalah yang paling bertimpa-timpa

kegembiraan kitalah yang paling tidak lama

kita kita sahajalah yang diduga segala

lupa

lupa pada hari-hari kita diberi hidup smooth tanpa masalah

lupa pada hari-hari kita diberi kegembiraan sedunia tidak terjangka

lupa pada hari-hari kita buat apa sahaja tiada cabaran menimpa

kita lupa...lupa hanya pada ...bila kita ditimpa masalah

kalaulah kita tahu

masalah itu tanda sayangnya Dia pada kita

manusia...begitulah

aku ini...juga orang yang terlupa

muhasabah diri iya

buatnya tidak juga

haih

haihhhhhh

kenapa masih berkeluh?

wake up baby girl

si pemimpi

xoxo

12.30pm

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