Counting hours

Dear february 14
Will you do me a favor
Dont let february 15 to replace you
I mean
Would you stand for your spot
Isnt it?

Why do you have to come so quickly?
Im a little bit nervous over here
Counting the hours
I mean
Im not counting at all
But looking at the time
Makes me scared
Makes me urghh you dont wanna know
What i feel inside me

Dear february 14
If you let february 15 come
It will never be the same again for me
Never ever the same again
I like the things now
Im not ready
Its nothing actually
Its just a number
No of course not
Its not just a number
Its my life
Kamonnnn

Dear me
Kamonnn
Face the truth
Its not that bad
You making it worse
But its not

Shut up!

Denial
5.30pmfeb142013
Hanging on the clock

February

Its february
I just wish there is no february this year
Lol

Seriously
Mom, why february?
Why not december?
Haha silly me

Anyway
I love february
I always do

Im thankful
And i feel blessed
There is no better month for me
I know

Thank you momma
You rock my world
And i rock yours definitely?
Lol

Counting the days
Counting hours
I hope i still alive
When the time comes
Amin

Nina
On my couch
14feb20130.14am

Hole

Dear momma..
I have so much to tell you
But no words can describe my feelings

A hole in my heart
It hurts
It really hurts

Something is missing
Something has been stolen from me
And its not okay

Dear momma

I just
Miss you so much

Sigh ;(

Hello 2013

hi...

As we begin this new year... I want to remind everyone of just how amazing you all are... This year is brand new... and you can make it whatever you want...it is all up to you. 

What you need to remember is that you are much more capable then you believe you are.
When you think you can't... you can. 
When you think you aren't smart enough..you are. 
When you want to give up.. don't. 

Things don't always go the way they are supposed to. Plans change... people flake out.. you run into problems you didn't expect.. but you know what? That is the spice of life.. or that is what they say... Trust me I don't like when things go as planned.... I am the queen of planning  one who not really plan on what i want to do... *whisper* (but still..i think of what i want in my head doh :P)...  

guess what..? I don't like it when there are changes to my 'not so well plans', but there is one thing I have learned.. and that is don't give up... You are always capable of more then you believe... Hang in there and make your dreams come true!

So welcome to 2013! I hope that it is your best year yet. What changes are you making? What goals are you setting? What are you planning for this brand new year?
 
New Year, New Goals, New Dreams, New wishlists

But first...i need to perform this without fail ~pray~
i failed ... shame on me
i have to change it ..so heres my note to self

'solat jangan tinggal....jangan tinggal solat...solat jangan tinggal...jangan tinggal solat'

perform this without fail...
and your dreams..your goals....your wishlists...in sya Allah... will come to you  

xoxo

8.00pm09012013

2012survival

earth

bicara 152

betullah kata orang

bila kau suka

ramai orang tumpang gembira

cuba bila kau duka

bilang dengan jari orang bersama

untung-untung sangkutlah sekerat dua

kalau rugi..sorang-soranglah kau tanggung rasa

alaa lumrah hidup

itulah kata mereka

ada benarnya juga

kita manusia

ditafsir lebih suka yang gembira-gembira

yang duka-duka ahhh buat apalah berduka

buang masa

emosi

dipendam seorang boleh gila

disebar merata boleh tokok tambah perisa

dikongsi lebih dibuat halwa telinga

dibiar tidak akan ke mana

dilayan bosan pula

ada sebabnya kenapa kita tak boleh sombong dengan Tuhan

ada sebabnya mengapa kita disuruh berpegang teguh pada agama

tapi yang selalu lupa

kita-kita juga

sebab apa lebih baik tunjuk muka gembira sentiasa?

sebab itulah yang orang suka

pendamlah rasa babi keji hina kau di dalam dada

sebab takde siapa pun yang akan bersama mengharunginya

oh ya...ada

yang darahnya sama alirnya dengan darahmu

yang benihnya bersatu membentukmu

yang rahimnya dikongsi membesarkanmu

yang bila dicubit terasa sakitmu

nina

1.52 pagi 29122012

di pejabat durjana

hahaha i kid you kid

lacking

dear nina

no more excuses

must do this everyday

running is inclusive

dear fatty

we seriously need to talk

do not feel comfortable yet

you pissed me off already

and please

stop talking

start doing

i mean doing really hard

not on and off and on and off

gahhhhh 

-_________________-

heres to you

do it now
or else
your boyfriend will never stop teasing your belly
hahahaha 
not funny ok
-_-

 xoxo,

inner self

3.30pm10/12/2012

inside belly 

fragile

sad

miserable

melancholy

frustrated

disappointed

worried

over thinks

venting

anger

lifeless

hopeless

heart broken

sensitive

stuck

hurt

doubt

vulnerable

pain and strife

messed up

sharp pain in my heart

squeezed like a lime

rejected ignored

all in one

cry

tears

smile

tears

talk

 tears

laugh 

tears

 every now and then

tears
alone

me

today

people asking

everything is okay

everything is fine

;)

if you're crying while you're trying to tell someone you're fine—
you're not fine

What a sad beautiful tragic love affair

xoxo

human

1.32pm6/12/2012